A testimony: The power of God’s redemption through Jesus Christ
Before we begin discussing the topic for this blog post, I must say that I am more than excited to be back. I feel comforted in this space as I allow the Holy Spirit to flow here through what God is doing to me in my own life. As time has gone by, I realized that God did not just give me this blog as a ministry for women and young ladies to grow in intimacy with Him, but a gift to me personally. When I write, it feels like I am flowing in the DNA of my original design in the Lord. I can get into a realm where it’s just me and the Lord, the master and the student, the Father and his daughter. He has blessed me with a writing platform that is also a school for me, where I learn about him through the life experiences he is bringing me through personally. It’s a place I get to revisit the wisdom I gained in my walk with the Lord so that I can walk as a student who passes the test that is set before her and witness other women do the same. This is a place where I get to document what I learn and grow from. Writing in the Lord has been a place of peace for me. Thank Jesus for this gift. I am grateful for every single person who comes here and reads my post. God bless you all.
So, before we can dive into the main part of this topic, I have to give the background story of what birthed this post.
A little over a month ago, I fell into a deep deception by forming an ungodly soul tie with someone the Lord warned me not to pursue a friendship with. How did the friendship form anyway? Because of disobedience and trying to operate in my own understanding by giving this person a chance, because of desiring a friendship with them, and gaslighting myself to not pass them by because of the distrust I usually had for people. Little did I know that this person the Lord was warning me about dealt with mental challenges of their own that they had kept private to themselves. Although this person seemed Christian and even spoke the language, they did not carry the spirit of God for real, and because I did not obey in the testing of the spirit, I came into agreement with their mental state and was tormented for about a week. I came into agreement with false perceptions, false concerns, and false accusations about true children of God and a pure ministry that was covering us. I want to make something clear. Though this person was not truly of the Lord, that did not excuse my part of anything I partook in it because I knew better, I had discerned better, I had stepped out of my covenant with the Holy Spirit, which led to a crack in my wall because of believing a lie instead of drawing back and saying “I need to seek the Lord before taking your word on it”. BUT BOY DID I LEARN MY LESSON! However, during this process, I had unknowingly fallen into witchcraft, doing what I thought was right unto the Lord until he restored my spiritual sight. I was so grieved and felt so disgusted by what I had done because I knew better as an individual. I repented. However, what came after that repentance is something I had not felt since the time I got saved, truly experiencing the gratitude in the redeeming power of God.
When I realized what I had done, I felt like I could not be used to glorify God anymore, that I no longer had the right to worship God, nor to testify about His goodness. Lol, I remember thinking to myself that I could not be seen, that I just needed to become a regular civilian who would talk about God only sometimes. I had wanted to become silent, not just in words but in presence as well. The devil would’ve loved that, but I serve a God whose love specializes in bringing the prodigals back and restoring us unto him. When Romans 8 verse 1 tells us “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit”, that is the truth, and the Lord is the truth, and truth makes us free (John 8:36). I was in deep need of deliverance because of the intensity of the spiritual danger I had put myself in.
Eventually, I ended up getting deliverance, and when I tell you, the redemption of God just took over my life. The way the Lord restored me to Him, you would’ve thought I did something good to deserve it, and because of Him showing me his grace like this, I have a greater understanding of redemption. During this time, I had to confess my faults and ask for forgiveness from others; however, the only forgiveness that was able to redeem me and set me free was the forgiveness of the Lord Jesus Christ. Even if no one else forgave me, I had to be content that the forgiveness of the Lord Jesus carried the power to redeem me back to his love. God used this revelation to birth a holy fire that I have never seen inside of me before. He blessed me with the fear of the Lord to speak up and out about what is not God and what is God, to stand boldly and holiness. I shall never fall again in the name of Jesus.
Matthew 9:6 KJV
But that ye may know that the Son of man hath power on earth to forgive sins, (then saith he to the sick of the palsy,) Arise, take up thy bed, and go unto thine house.
Passivity is a crack for deception to come in.
Being passive is a form of cowardliness, not love. Many Christians think that being passive about something, not addressing something, is love and humility, but indeed it is not; it brings forth destruction. The thing is, many believers know what to say and do, but the fear of man and the fear of rejection is what holds them back from using the mouth God gave them to speak up how they know the Lord wants them too. Before and during this incident with this particular person, I had questions and I knew answers, but my excuse was “maybe I’m doing too much” or “I don’t want to be mean”. There is nothing wrong about asking questions and speaking up on something, especially for clarity; this way of thinking is diabolical. According to 1 Corinthians 14:33, “For God is not the author of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints.” I thank God that he is merciful in removing old ways of thinking as long as we humble ourselves and ask him. The entire Bible is God addressing something so that we can live godly lives and not fall into the traps of unrighteousness. God hates sin and unrighteousness, but He never stops being love. God addresses things that provoke him, but he does not stop being love. We must hate what God hates and love how he loves. Following a gospel that says we must be all merciful without addressing the wrongs is a false gospel. Cowardliness leads people straight to hell. (Don’t worry, there will be a repentance prayer for those who want to get right with God, this isn't to condemn you but to wake you up.)
Distractions are a crack for deception.
The Bible tells us many times that we must remain vigilant so that we don’t miss the coming of Christ and so that we don’t get devoured by the enemy. Being vigilant will help us to live a life of preparation before the Lord by always living his will because we know it. Being vigilant helps us to know how the enemy is coming before he even comes, but when there are distractions in place, the voice of the Lord gets drowned out. My apostle taught an amazing teaching in her mentorship on the voice of the Holy Spirit this past week, teaching us what the Holy Spirit would not say and what He would say. One of the things she mentioned was that the voice of God comes in a whisper; he will not shout over the distractions in your life just so you can hear him. He needs you to pay attention to him so that you can know it’s Him. You know that saying, “you give the devil an inch and he will take a mile.” It’s the same when we are not completely dedicated to being focused on the Lord; that small place of distraction is all he needs to bring havoc into our lives. During that time of deception, there was a lot of noise going on; I was getting distracted by people when God was trying to get me prepared in transition for the next season of my life. The distractions were less about what I was getting distracted by, but more so what I was not focused on. I wasn’t as present and quiet as I should’ve been during that week in the Lord; it was like there was so much restriction in being intimate with the Lord. The Lord kept showing me that if I were in a position to just do one thing that he told me to do, it would’ve prevented all that happened.
Deception brings Delusion
This is something the Lord kept speaking to me after the incident occurred.
By definition, according to Google, the word delusion means a false belief or judgment about external reality, held despite incontrovertible evidence to the contrary, occurring especially in mental conditions.
Y'all, this is exactly what I was going through. Seeing things that were not true and praying according to lies. The amount of repentance that was needed! I thank God for the blood of Jesus and his grace because that was the only thing that could have power to wash away my sins, thank you, Jesus!
After falling into this trap, I was expecting to be met by the wrath of God, but he clothed me in his mercy and restored me, redeemed me back into alignment with Him. He restored me to a greater position than I was before. He met me with His overwhelming love, and because of it, I got a fresh wind on why I serve Jesus. When it was all over, he gave me a command, and that was to forgive myself. This was so different because I would hear about the importance of forgiveness, including ourselves, and understood that it was a command, but I heard a seriousness from the Lord when he said it. God gets so grieved when we choose condemnation over him. If he forgave us for it, then we need to walk in the freedom of the finished work of the Lord Jesus Christ and the blood of Jesus, no matter what others say. Choosing to live in condemnation and even condemning others is mocking what Jesus did for us when he died for us just so we can live in Him. Redeeming us from sin to life in him and his love, we don’t deserve it, and that’s why we have to steward it well and show it to others well, no matter what they've done to us or what we’ve done to them so that God can be glorified. He kept speaking to me about the story of the prodigal son, and something stood out to me that I had not seen before. Not only did he meet his son halfway way but he rejoiced, he celebrated him, took him in as if he never sinned against Him, and not only clothed him in royal garments but gave him the best of the best of everything. God’s love is the reward we could never earn; it’s a gift. Thank you, Jesus! We must make sure we celebrate when someone returns and not act like the prodigal son’s brother who missed out on the move of God in someone’s life. It’s God’s will manifesting itself on the earth as it was in heaven.
Matthew 6:14-15 KJV
For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
Luke 15:20- 24 KJV
“And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him. And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son. But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet: And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry: For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.”
Now, if you have found yourself in a position where you have wronged the Lord, an individual, a group, or even a ministry, repentance, renunciation, and breaking demonic covenants are needed. After you have done this, you need to declare a blessing over those you wronged. You must go before the Lord and possibly others to confess your faults and ask for forgiveness. You must also forgive yourself and live in the freedom of God’s forgiveness, allowing the blood of Jesus to wipe away the stain of that guilt and sin. You must walk in a greater level of intentionality, holiness, and boldness so that the spirit of God is protected in you and that you are not allowing intruders to enter.
Pray this with me:
Father, in the name of Jesus, I come before you repenting for my sins and wrongs that I have done against you, against (ministries, groups, organizations, etc.), and against those you’ve anointed. I repent any curses I spoke knowingly and unknowingly. I repent for coming into agreement with the lies of the enemy, I repent for coming into agreement with gossip, witchcraft, slander, pride, people-pleasing, fear of people, rebellion, disobedience, and deception. (If you have any more that come to mind, repent and renounce them). I renounce gossip, witchcraft, slander, pride, people-pleasing, fear of people, deception, rebellion, and disobedience. Lord, I ask that you bless every individual who was impacted by my disobedience and rebellion. Bless their descendants as well, may they experience the glory and prosperity of the Lord God all the year os their life according to your word in Isaiah 59:21 and Deuteronomy 5:10. May the blessings of the Lord never depart from their house. May every evil word spoken against them be condemned in Jesus' name. Lord, I’ve confessed my fault to you and ask that you forgive me and show mercy to me by washing my wrongs with the blood of Jesus, purify me that I walk righteously before the Lord. I pray that you grace me with forgiveness from them and that you heal their hearts in the name of Jesus. I forgive myself for these wrongs and choose to accept the redemption of the Lord Jesus Christ that brings prodigals back to you. In the name of Jesus Christ, I pray, amen.
I pray we continuously live holy, in Jesus Name.
Also, If you would like to accept the love of God and His son, Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior, or even if you have backslidden and want to return to the Lord, here’s a prayer to guide you.
“ God almighty, I come before you to accept your love, to no longer reject you and what you have done for me. I choose to stop running from you and to finally stop rejecting myself of your love. Thank you for dying for me Lord Jesus, thank you for taking on my sins and shame. Thank you Lord that you became a curse for me so that I would no longer be bound by them but set free by your blood that was shed for me. Thank You for making yourself available to me, as friend, father, Lord, God, helper, comforter, savior, and all the good things I need in my life. Jesus I love you and ask you to help me keep loving you like how you want me to. I accept you completely as my Lord and savior, not what this world and demons have presented to me. Now I declare in the both spiritual and physical realm, that I not longer belong to Satan nor his Kingdom but according to Colossians 1:13, God has delivered me from the kingdom of darkness and has placed me in the Kingdom of light, where Jesus Christ is, I declare I belong to Jesus Christ and I now seat with Him In heavenly places. I rebuke all demonic retaliation in me making this decision and come into agreement with a sound mind in Jesus’ name. I repent, renounce, denounce, and divorce myself from all the sins I’ve committed (list what you can remember) and break the evil covenants associated with them, and I declare once again I am a part of the kingdom of Jesus Christ. In Jesus’ name I pray and seal this prayer in His blood, Amen.”
Hallelujah! Congratulations if you made this decision. I pray that you prevail in your walk in the Lord, that forces of darkness continue to fail concerning you, and that the forces of light continue to persevere and propel you in the name of Jesus.
And if you have not yet, get yourself a Bible. Please, it’s a lot of ghetto foolishness concerning Christianity and religion. The Bible is the only way to protect you from it and will show you how to be a Christian and have a real relationship with Jesus Christ.
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